Melting Transitions Scarf Pattern

hand spun knitted scarf pattern

by Chandi on September 17, 2012

Melting Transitions Scarf

wedge knit scarf gradient

This scarf is so indicative of the last 6 months of my life. It has been one of the most profound, most magical periods of my life, thus far.

When I began this scarf, it was mid-spring here in Alaska. I was working a job. It was a great job, with wonderful people whom I adored, the pay was great, the environment friendly and the work easy.

On my lunch breaks, I would go to the break room, whip out my knitting bag and work a few rows of my current project, while eating my usual spinach leaf/sugared walnut/strawberry/blue cheese salad with Newman’s Own Raspberry Walnut dressing. Mmmmm…Sometimes I’d fall asleep on the couch.

I had a good life and the opportunity for a more permanent position there.

But my soul was sad. You see, I’m a creator at heart. I simply must create. A life lived without daily creativity would be no life at all for me.

knitted scarf pattern for handspun yarn

Since I was a tiny girl, I’ve done all sorts of crafts. I’ve made candles, hand-made lye soap, baskets, pottery, skin care products and cosmetics (in fact that was my previous business), etc, etc, etc.

I began crocheting at 9 and loved it for years, until my college days. I laid it aside to begin my life. I got married, finished college with a degree in business.  A few years later, when I was 27, I learned to knit via YouTube and books. And yarn was once again a part of my life.

Fast forward past a divorce, a 4,000-mile move to Alaska, the agonizing pains of readjusting to life without my previous business and income and the fear of starting over.

I happened upon this temporary job position and was delighted to have income at last. But my heart was hurting. I so longed to create as I had before and actually earn my living from it. I wasn’t asking to be rich or to have more than I needed. I just asked for enough to live on and be able to give as I felt led to.

After 6 months of working my job, I grew increasingly restless. I began this scarf, using some of my most favorite hand-spun yarn. I had tried making this into several projects but it was so loose and floppy that a scarf was all it wanted to be.

So I drew out a design and began knitting.

The scarf began as a muted frozen teal. A beautiful color, but cold and restrained like a glacier and like the grip of fear in my heart.

teal and brown knitted scarf pattern

As I knitted along, it began shifting into icy crests of white. At the same time, my life took on a change. I decided that doing anything less than my heart told me to do for a living was not living at all and a mockery of All That Is Good.

So I quit my job after 7 months of being there. I wobbled in indecision on what to do with my life. The scarf mimicked even that by shifting into all three shades of glassy teal, frosty white and bark brown.

gradient handspun knit scarf pattern

I had been dabbling with Expression Fiber Arts for almost a year, but due to the job and lack of space where I was living, I just hadn’t had the time or energy to put into it what I felt it would take to make it really go.

At that time, I had decided to simply sell out all the yarn and fiber stock I had and then let the wind take me where it would.

This scarf lay forgotten during those times, unthought of, as I worked on simple garter stitch projects to ease my mind and heart.

As life would have it, I  finally gave up trying to figure it all out… I stopped trying so hard and simply surrendered to That Which is Greater Than Myself. I let go. And everything I had been wanting fell into place with ease. It seems as if I skipped a bunch of the details, but really that is how it happened.

I sit here astounded still at the odd turn of events.

Time and space were both opened to me, as if saying, “Take the chance. Live!”

In the last few weeks of the summer, the way was opened for me to move to a new studio/living space. And for a great price unheard of in Alaska (the cost of living here is astronomical), I have an entire two story building and property at my disposal for my business and possible classes, if I so choose.

I realized I could earn a decent living with my crafts, while helping others to create more rapturously, live more fully and connect with other crafters, which is so delightful and healing in many ways. And I could even take a part and give to quality charities of my choice to spread goodness in the world.

easy knitted scarf pattern

I discovered this scarf one day, sitting lonely in one of my many knitting project bags, so I finished it within a few weeks and really for the first time noticed how the changing color transitions mirrored the change of my life since I had started it.

I love how it started out cold and frozen-like, like a blue glacier. Then it shifted into icy swaths of white, with mingles of both blue and brown. And how it finished on a very grounded, earthy color: brown, for I feel very grounded these days. Very in tune with nature and simplicity. Very serene.

melting transitions scarf pattern

I’ve let go of the fear of basic survival and have opened up to trust that which is greater than myself, knowing all things work together for good. They always do.

I feel as if the icy grip of fear has melted and disappeared, and all that is left is truth: That I am whole. That all is well. And here I am grounded and real and open, ready for where ever life takes me; fertile and excited to see what seeds have been planted in me and will soon sprout and grow. (Wouldn’t this have made a perfect post for spring? Alas… )

And I realize that the true beauty of life (as in the scarf) is the combination and flow of colors… Just one color alone would be grand, but the contrast and symphony of the multiple shades in combination are what create true beauty. And I wouldn’t trade any of it, for one polarity reveals the other with more clarity, creating more appreciation in me.

scarf knitting pattern with eyelets

I love the transitions and seasons of life and this scarf means all of those things to me. I hope you enjoy knitting the pattern and that in a small way at least it reassures you that during your fearful times, you are not alone.

We all have our fears and worries. Who knows what the future may bring? But we can know this at least, We Are Not Alone…

We have a connected web of fellow humans and if we open our hearts, we can see the many possible friendships and loving, helping hands ready to assist and doors which will open for us.

And I want to take a minute to thank each of you who read my blog, are connected with me on facebook, instagram and twitter and/or have purchased from my shop. I am immensely grateful to each of you. Your kind comments mean the world to me and have uplifted and encouraged me everyday. I only hope I can be such an encouragement to you.

 

teal, white, brown scarf pattern for knitters

 

The pattern for this is available here on Ravelry. It was a little intimidating to post my first pattern for sale via PDF format, but there you have it. I worked through it and got ‘er done!

This pattern is ideal for using up scrap yarn or hand spun yarn with unclear yardage, as you just keep working wedges until you run out of yarn.

The yarn is some of my hand spun, approximately a worsted weight. The teal and brown are merino wool and the center white section is bamboo fiber. Bamboo is naturally more “slouchy” and less resilient than the wool, so that part of the scarf tends to slink a little.  I think this will be one of my frequently worn scarves…

Please let me know what you think about this scarf and your thoughts on my post… 

Much love,

~Chandi

About the author

Chandi Hi, I'm Chandi! I'm a self-professed lover of all things yarn. I'm an avid knitter, crocheter, wool dyer, fleece and roving spinner and occasional felter! I offer beautiful, inspiring, hand-painted yarns and deliver the best of all yarn-related tutorials I can on my blog.

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Steph September 17, 2012 at 1:39 pm

Hey Chan, Happy to read this post and see you in a peaceful place. XO

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Chandi September 17, 2012 at 2:06 pm

It’s been a journey, for sure. I hope the same for you! :)

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Sarah September 17, 2012 at 11:45 pm

<3 Way to go for following your heart & passion!!! You do amazing work & i'm so glad I came across your blog. Very inspiring :) Love the scarf too…beautiful :)

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 3:39 pm

Thank you for the sweet comment, Sarah! I’m so glad too…you’ve been an encouragement to me!

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Debbie September 17, 2012 at 11:55 pm

…..such an inspirational journey…thanks for sharing :)
I hope I can purchase from your shop soon :)

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 3:40 pm

Thank you so much, Debbie!

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Laura Cummings September 18, 2012 at 12:08 am

Chandi, your story sounds a little like my own. I wish I was as creative as you are. I spin, knit and crochet, but I don’t make my own patterns, (don’t know how to). I bought this scarf pattern because I thought it was gorgeous.

I’m glad you found peace in your life. Thanks for everything.

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 3:42 pm

Thank you so much, Laura! I hope you enjoy the pattern. I don’t really “know how” either, I just started one day and poof… I know you can do it! Designing a pattern is sort of like life. You draw out a plan, but sometimes (almost always) it does what it wants and you hafta roll with it. :D

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Sandy September 18, 2012 at 12:10 am

Very insightful post. I’m glad you can look back and see how things have changed, funny how everything happens and makes a beautiful tapestry (or scarf) without our realizing at the time.
Thanks for sharing, I enjoyed reading about your journey over the last several months.
Lovely pictures too!

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 3:44 pm

Yes, hind-sight is 20-20 they say. Thank you so much, Sandy!!

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Penny September 18, 2012 at 12:27 am

I am so happy for you, that your finally right where your meant to be! Love reading your blogs, they are so profound & encouraging. I now want to make the scarf & will think of you as I do.
Penny

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 3:54 pm

Oh, thank you so much, Penny! I hope you enjoy making it!

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Christina September 18, 2012 at 12:35 am

Absolutely love this scarf and the colors. Just “favorited,” guess that’s sort of a word, on Ravelry! ~ Christina

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 3:56 pm

Ohhh!! Thank you, Christina! So glad you like the scarf!

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Connie Mosel September 18, 2012 at 12:35 am

Loved reading your post. It reminds me of the transitions in life that I have had. I was married for 46 1/2 years to a wonderful Christian man who taught me that
I was a worthwhile person and someone to be loved and cherished. My childhood had no fond memories. I lost him to a rare and aggressive form of prostate cancer in December of 2008. Having never lived alone because I got married right out of High School that was a huge challenge. I had given up my job as a Registered Nurse to care for him at home for 2 1/2 years. I would not change that ever. But now I am in that perpetual state of not knowing quite what to do with my life. I have to go back to school if I want to renew my RN license and I haven’t the money to do that. But I love to knit and crochet and have been doing that for many years. I have made and given away numerous different afghans, Christening Sets, scarves, sweater socks, you name it. But I am still wandering around not really feeling that sense of stability. Money is scarce, jobs are even scarcer for my age group. I knit mostly as I feel the need to have the two needles to help soothe whatever is bothering me. I managed a great little gift shop and actually sold some of my many projects. That was the hardest thing I had ever done. How do you put a price on something that you made with love and care. To me it was just wrong, I just always felt like it should be given as a gift. Anyway I am still in the transition part of my new life and just want you to know that I think you are a very gifted and talented person and I do so respect what you have done with your life. You are a great inspiration to anyone who takes the time to read some of your posts! Thank you from the bottom of my heart and may the Lord continue to bless you.

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 3:59 pm

Hi, Connie.

I am so happy you had such a wonderful husband all those years. What a blessing!

I understand the fear of being alone… it’s quite scary indeed.

I will pray you find the perfect direction for your life and know God will be there helping every step of the way. :) Thank you for your sweet comment!

Have a blessed day!

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Valorie Fischer September 18, 2012 at 1:08 am

Well first of all, WOW! I love the scarf, but the story is incredible. I wish I could truly put into words how much you have inspired me, and how much I care for you, though we have never met.

I call that transition stage, “The Great Unknown” …. borrowed from Melody Beattie. I am glad that you made it through and that you recognize the joy that is not possible without the dark moments. To live a life with no changes, and no sorrows, would mean a life without joy… I will definitely take the rainbow!

Finally, I hate to knit, but I am going to try to make this scarf… for me. Because your story really reached the heart of me…. I think I need a reminder that the Great Unknown is an okay place to be… things will work out as they are supposed to!

Hugs from Wyoming, Chandi!

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 4:03 pm

Valorie, YOU have inspired me tremendously. I can’t tell you what a difference you’ve made in my life and the ripples that have gone out as a result.

I hope you like making the scarf! If you opt out of it, I have crochet patterns in the works, which you might prefer making. :D

Have a glorious day! I hope you get to play in all that fiber soon!

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Samantha Rudzinski September 18, 2012 at 1:24 am

Such a beautiful and uplifting post. Thank you for sharing your inspiring story. The scarf is so beautiful that it makes me want to teach myself to knit. I know I will eventually give it a go. I have so much on my plate with crochet now, and I would love to learn to spin next. I love your gorgeous yarn and fibers, and I can’t wait to buy more.

Very glad you found me on facebook; your yarn is a pleasure to work with:)

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 4:07 pm

Thanks, Samantha!

I am first a crocheter, as well. Knitting is much more difficult for me, as my mind seems to be wired for crochet.

I hope you get to learn knitting at some point, though, as it really opens up a whole new world of possibilities. I highly recommend knowing both!

As a crocheter, I found knitting with the yarn held in my left hand to be most intuitive, but experiment and see what you prefer.

And spinning is like heaven on earth. Once you get the hang of it, it’s so soothing and easy and pleasant. Not much thought has to go into it, really, so you can just spin away…
:)

Have a fun day!

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Colleen Hoke September 18, 2012 at 1:24 am

Your such a sweetheart, a reminder to me that God works in such a wonderful way and loves each and every one of us and if we just let go and let God he will do his work, as he always does.

You are an inspiration, I look forward to each and every post you write. I find strength in your written word and your fiber arts are amazing!

Thank you so much for your work, but most of all your encouragement and kind words!

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 4:12 pm

Oh, thank YOU, Colleen! That means so much to me. I appreciate your kind words!

I hope you enjoy your day!

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Ruth September 18, 2012 at 2:11 am

Chandi….After reading this, you inspire me to come out of my hole….Several years ago, I became a domestic violence survivor being beaten up by the child that I used to call my son. Post divorce was tough as the marriage did not survive the violence of my child….I am now happily married to a wonderful man…..He has encouraged me to pick up yarn again and even though I am starting knitting/crocheting over again, it reminds me of how far I have come. Started an afghan to hopefully create a story the way you have with your scarf. Thankyou. Looking forward so much to receiving my first order from you and to a long connection with you. thankyou. Ruthie

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 4:16 pm

Ruth, I’m so happy you have come out of a violent situation into a beautiful marriage. That is a tremendous blessing. I know the process was probably chaotic and scary and stressful, but I’m glad it’s over for you now and you’re settled. And a man that encourages you to work with yarn? HE IS A KEEPER!! :D

Crocheting or knitting with a story or purpose in mind is so much more fulfilling than just making something pretty, I find. I would dearly love to see your finished afghan!

I hope to get your order shipped out today! Thanks for taking the time to comment!

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Tara Quarles September 18, 2012 at 2:26 am

<3 This brought tears to my eyes. I am so happy you have found yourself in a happy place! What more could a human ask for? :D Love and hugs from SC

~Tara~

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 4:18 pm

OH, gosh, thank you so much! I was teary-eyed as well, reading through all the comments, including yours. THANK YOU and have a blessed day!

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Virginia September 18, 2012 at 4:32 am

Chandi, that is a beautiful story and a gorgeous scarf. You are striking as a model, so much expression in your face and body, so natural, you look very grounded and relaxed.

I appreciate hearing your journey, your dilemma and how you let it go. I am also struggling to make something happen. What a stroke of luck to find this message, exactly what I needed to hear and see, to let it go.

I love your creativity and courage. Thanks for sharing.

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 4:23 pm

Virginia,

I’m tickled pink you took encouragement from my words. I really feel like I’m not the one writing them, but that they flow from a bigger place/being.

If I’m in any way a good model, it’s due to my boyfriend, who is an amazing photographer. For the past year, we’ve done many photo shoots just for fun, which involve me standing for hours in awkward positions and uncomfortable dresses and high heels, while he snaps away, telling me to turn my head this way or that way, or move my arm back or turn my foot, relax my mouth, etc. I guess the more you practice anything, the better you get. :)

I will pray your situation works out exactly as it should and that greater hands take the problem and work all things out perfectly and in the perfect timing.

Enjoy this day!

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Sheree' September 18, 2012 at 5:51 pm

Chandi, thank your for all you share! You are such a peaceful/inspirational soul. I love your yarn work!
Have a blessed day!

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Chandi September 18, 2012 at 6:08 pm

Oh, thank you, thank you!! Glad you enjoy it!

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Jeanne September 19, 2012 at 1:28 pm

I really like the Melting Transitions Scarf that is featured on FB. I would like to know where and how to order the pattern and yarn.

Thankyou.
Jeanne

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Chandi September 19, 2012 at 2:24 pm

Hi, Jeanne!

I saw you found the pattern. So happy you like it! The yarn is some that I hand spun, but you can use any worsted weight yarn that you like. :)

Let me know if you have any questions!

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Sunny September 19, 2012 at 3:54 pm

on so many levels. Lots of transitions and energy. A new place to start it and your first pattern on Ravelry. Wow, pretty amazing. Thanks for sharing.

And if you are having a tough day make sure to wear your magic scarf.

Thanks for inspiring all of us,
Sunny

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Chandi September 19, 2012 at 7:47 pm

I will wear the magic scarf! :D Thanks, Sunny!

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Linda September 23, 2012 at 3:16 pm

such a beautiful ‘magic’ scarf…sure to be one of my future projects. Your story is so inspiring, wishing you all the best. Thank you, Linda

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Lauren January 24, 2013 at 5:55 am

Ty for your story…..namaste. crochet pattern yet?

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cin February 28, 2013 at 8:53 pm

I have tears flowing while I read this. I am so estatically happy for you and so wish I could “find myself” at 56 I really want to figure it out. I love crafts am good but am tired of what I was doing paper crafts, cards scrapbooking etc. This yarn is fantastic and the pattern is awesome, Is it hard as I am a beginner knitter, have knitted for years but never went further than k, p, psso, yo, etc. lol
I just today got some yarn for a spring scarf, don’t love the colour but she had very little light wt and light colours.
HUGS and omg I so enjoyed this blog.

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Wanda Palinkas February 28, 2013 at 8:54 pm

Thank you for sharing this wonderful story. Your journey was hard and you learned so much. Inspiration for us all. The scarf is gorgeous!

Love and light
Wanda

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Martha S February 28, 2013 at 8:57 pm

Chandi,
So glad you found yourself. As one who has traveled a road similar to yours (accepting that I had to create but experiencing the death of a spouse instead of divorce) several years back, I can say how proud of you I am. It takes guts to go after what you want and give up control to a higher force. I look forward to your journey and hope you are as happy as I am now.
I have downloaded your scarf pattern and hope to make it soon. Thank you so much for sharing your tale. And good luck with the rest of your life! :)

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LaChandra February 28, 2013 at 10:02 pm

I really think I was meant to find you. You give me hope that I can do something with my love a crocheting. Like you I started young and loved it. I too put it to the side because being from Bronx, NY you’re taught to get a job that will earn you money. Crocheting items wasn’t going to pay the rent or put food on the table. I’ve always wanted my own yarn store as I called it growing up. Just different types and brands all in one place. You give me hope that even though around here people aren’t that quick to buy handmade items that with time and getting finished projects online I can have some success. I want to thank you for that little bit of hope you give as I’m easily discouraged by hard times and frustration. Thank you a million times over.

In regards to your pattern I have put it in my Favorites list for now as knitting is not my strong suit. It looks amazing and I’m wondering what skill level would you give it? I would call myself a beginner for sure.

Thanks again and I appreciate all you bring and share.

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Minerva May 18, 2013 at 10:49 pm

Chandi, I just love this scarf. I really wish I knew how to knit; I am trying but am having trouble holding the needles ( I feel clumsy). I do crochet though. Maybe when I learn how to knit properly I can make it; and the color is fabulous. Thank you for sharing it.

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